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Have you ever wanted something so much that it breaks you heart a little every time you think of it?

Have you ever wanted something so much that you'd cling ever so tightly to the memory of it in fear that it will drift away?

Have you ever wanted something so much that it even visits you in your dreams as though it is calling you...as though it is the natural order of things.

If only I was more confident, perhaps it would have happened. If only I had loosen my grip, perhaps it would have returned. If only I stopped dreaming and focused on reality, perhaps it would have seen and felt my sincerity.

If only (如果)...I could develop the strength to find my closure.