After what seem liked one million cow years (approximately 3), I finally decided to go HOME (for a visit). Well...actually...I lie...I was going home for a short period of time as a transit to go on my Pilgrimage to Haifa in December 2009. However, as thing happen the way it happens, my family and I did not receive our entry visa in time, hence we had to skip the Spiritual Experience this time.
Lucky for me, that means I will be HOME lepak-ing for the next 3 weeks! Excellent!!
Being away from Home for so long, I was really excited but at the same time anxious that my relationship with my friends would have drifted apart...thankfully, I learnt that didn't happen! yay-ness!
Week One
I met up with an awesome bunch of friends with whom I grew up with! We went through alot together...since young we played together, created mischief together, choreograph dances together, sang together, got humiliated together...etc etc... so this week we met at a mamak in SS 15...we sat there talking & laughing and catching up & laughing and making jokes & laughing! It was super awesome! Our topics revolved around the memories of our past times. We also shared our visions in life...that is to Serve Humanity for the betterment of the world...we shared ideas on how to animate a Junior Youth group and all the funny yet interesting stories and learnings that I can use when I come back to Sydney.
Then I met with another bunch of friends who I met in School. We talked about our stages in life...where we are, what we have achieved, how come we are still single...(because men cannot be trusted! hahah..well that was the general ruling on the table) we sat there talking & laughing and catching up & laughing ! Though we talked all night, I noted to myself that our conversations were just surface talk... I didn't get to know what they truly felt...whether they were happy with where they are...whether they have other goals to strive for instead of work and finding a partner...I should have made the initiative...but I didn't.
3 years has passed and that is a long time to be away...though I am glad that my friends and I have not drifted apart...sadly that wasn't the case for some of them. With some, I felt as though I was competition, which made me feel like a test subject that will be dissected to be studied!
I realized that true friendships are those that are formed from the heart...it doesn't matter what we have in life..whether we are rich or poor, working or unemployed, married or single...all these issues are irrelevant! What matters to me is sincerity! And I am glad and extremely blessed to have such friends. They make my life more colorful!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
My office Plant!
Lalala...my daddy made me two plants for my little office...I must say I am pretty excited about seeing em grow taller and greener!
Daddy tells me that these plants won't die no matter what I did to it! (of course I wouldn't pull out the leaves or pull the roots to make them grow faster...what kind of a horrible gardener do you take me as?) Anyway, behold...my conversation with my daddy...
Daddy Lum: Girl, I potted two plants for your office.
PekaLynna: Awww...thank you daddy! But what if I kill it? I don't know how to care for plants! What if I forgot to give them H2o? *insert sad face here*
Daddy Lum: Don't worry babe...these plants are hardy! No matter what you do with it it won't die! And these plants don;t need too much water..whenever you remember, just give them some lah...
PekaLynna: *insert happiness* Yay!
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But sadly...It didn't last very long...just a couple of months...MY PLANTS DIED!! Well...initially I refused to believe it was dying becasue it was still standing...and there was a couple of leaves on the weee little branch...but I was carful not to touch em...otherwise the weee little leaves will fall off... O_o" And I started tying some green strings to elevate their confidence in growing again...And I continued my singing to them every morning and ocassionally when I am bored...And I watered them consistentaly...And I actually took em out to bask in the beautiful sun! And And..I bought them another play mate...a live plant to keep them company!
After all THAT!!??!! It died!
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The irony of it all! Me trying with heart and soul to save these plants and I think by doing so, it speed up the process of its death!
Sigh!! What do I have to do to keep my plants alive?? ..paint my tumb green I suppose...
Daddy tells me that these plants won't die no matter what I did to it! (of course I wouldn't pull out the leaves or pull the roots to make them grow faster...what kind of a horrible gardener do you take me as?) Anyway, behold...my conversation with my daddy...
Daddy Lum: Girl, I potted two plants for your office.
PekaLynna: Awww...thank you daddy! But what if I kill it? I don't know how to care for plants! What if I forgot to give them H2o? *insert sad face here*
Daddy Lum: Don't worry babe...these plants are hardy! No matter what you do with it it won't die! And these plants don;t need too much water..whenever you remember, just give them some lah...
PekaLynna: *insert happiness* Yay!
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But sadly...It didn't last very long...just a couple of months...MY PLANTS DIED!! Well...initially I refused to believe it was dying becasue it was still standing...and there was a couple of leaves on the weee little branch...but I was carful not to touch em...otherwise the weee little leaves will fall off... O_o" And I started tying some green strings to elevate their confidence in growing again...And I continued my singing to them every morning and ocassionally when I am bored...And I watered them consistentaly...And I actually took em out to bask in the beautiful sun! And And..I bought them another play mate...a live plant to keep them company!
After all THAT!!??!! It died!
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The irony of it all! Me trying with heart and soul to save these plants and I think by doing so, it speed up the process of its death!
Sigh!! What do I have to do to keep my plants alive?? ..paint my tumb green I suppose...
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Prettiest Friend by Jason Maraz... :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rIZmDHPqGl4&feature=related
this is what i look like today
and i'm trying not to pull out my hair
i'm trying not to show it cause i'm far too shy to grow it back there
that's probably why i like wearing hats
there's no denying i'm deferring the facts
avoiding confrontation
lacks tact in a situation
behind every line is a lesson yet to learn
but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is overwhelming
and oh it goes to show
i've so much to know
i wrote this for my prettiest friend
who while trying not to prove that i care
trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare him away
well he can't see he's making me crazy now
i don't believe he knows he's amazing how
he has me holding my breathe
so i'd never guess that i'm a none such unsuitable, suitable for him
but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is complimentery
and oh it goes to show
the moral of the story is girl loves boy
and so on the way that it unfolds is yet to be told
i know that i should be brave
even pretty can be seen by the blind
i know that i cannot wait
until the day we finally learn how to find each other
redefining open minds
and if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is overjoyed
and it's golden, it goes to show then
the ending of this song should be left alone
and so on cause the way it unfolds is yet to be told
this is what i look like today
and i'm trying not to pull out my hair
i'm trying not to show it cause i'm far too shy to grow it back there
that's probably why i like wearing hats
there's no denying i'm deferring the facts
avoiding confrontation
lacks tact in a situation
behind every line is a lesson yet to learn
but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is overwhelming
and oh it goes to show
i've so much to know
i wrote this for my prettiest friend
who while trying not to prove that i care
trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare him away
well he can't see he's making me crazy now
i don't believe he knows he's amazing how
he has me holding my breathe
so i'd never guess that i'm a none such unsuitable, suitable for him
but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is complimentery
and oh it goes to show
the moral of the story is girl loves boy
and so on the way that it unfolds is yet to be told
i know that i should be brave
even pretty can be seen by the blind
i know that i cannot wait
until the day we finally learn how to find each other
redefining open minds
and if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is overjoyed
and it's golden, it goes to show then
the ending of this song should be left alone
and so on cause the way it unfolds is yet to be told
Saturday, August 1, 2009
A promise
Finally! I have something to look forward to!
Finally! I my dream will become a reality!
Finally! I have a goal to work towards!
And I thank my dear friend for her persistence and passion in helping me make this decision! And no doubt, with her company, it would make the move all too easy! :)
So, for now, I will fulfill my promise to pray that we may remain determined and ablaze with the fire of the love for God to serve His Cause in the land called China.
Finally! I my dream will become a reality!
Finally! I have a goal to work towards!
And I thank my dear friend for her persistence and passion in helping me make this decision! And no doubt, with her company, it would make the move all too easy! :)
So, for now, I will fulfill my promise to pray that we may remain determined and ablaze with the fire of the love for God to serve His Cause in the land called China.
Friday, July 24, 2009
如果
Have you ever wanted something so much that it breaks you heart a little every time you think of it?
Have you ever wanted something so much that you'd cling ever so tightly to the memory of it in fear that it will drift away?
Have you ever wanted something so much that it even visits you in your dreams as though it is calling you...as though it is the natural order of things.
If only I was more confident, perhaps it would have happened. If only I had loosen my grip, perhaps it would have returned. If only I stopped dreaming and focused on reality, perhaps it would have seen and felt my sincerity.
If only (如果)...I could develop the strength to find my closure.
Have you ever wanted something so much that you'd cling ever so tightly to the memory of it in fear that it will drift away?
Have you ever wanted something so much that it even visits you in your dreams as though it is calling you...as though it is the natural order of things.
If only I was more confident, perhaps it would have happened. If only I had loosen my grip, perhaps it would have returned. If only I stopped dreaming and focused on reality, perhaps it would have seen and felt my sincerity.
If only (如果)...I could develop the strength to find my closure.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Am I stuck in Never Never Land?
Scenario 1:
You have an appointment with a Banker who is taking care of the investments your company has been making. He comes to your office to discuss new investment opportunities moving forward...as the discussion was building...He stops...stares at you...and said "your eyes look different...its nice...are you wearing colored contacts?
In such a situation, what would you do?
What normal 24 year old people would do:
Yea, I'm wearing grey contacts because I am vain and would like to look different.
This is what I did:
After his comment, I smiled and without thinking of my reputation I put on a serious face and said...Actually, (nodding dispassionately) I fell sick some time ago, it was some kind of a virus that drained the color of my eyes. (and a sniff to seal the lie) To my utter amusement, he believed me! In my mind I was thinking...crap I just lied and this Aussie bloke believes me! Anyway, I said it was a joke and we laughed it off.
Scenario 2:
You are at a restaurant, after dinner you want to order dessert so that you can continue sitting there having elevated conversations with your friends. However they only have Sticky rice and Banana. You gave it some thought, but felt you could not divulge it after a heavy meal.
Will you order it?
What normal people would do:
Order a cup of tea. Or if everyone is up for it, order that sticky rice and banana to be shared by all.
This is what happened:
Emm...how much for just the banana?
Naturally, everyone laughed at that gesture.
But honestly, what is wrong with just wanting the banana?
You have an appointment with a Banker who is taking care of the investments your company has been making. He comes to your office to discuss new investment opportunities moving forward...as the discussion was building...He stops...stares at you...and said "your eyes look different...its nice...are you wearing colored contacts?
In such a situation, what would you do?
What normal 24 year old people would do:
Yea, I'm wearing grey contacts because I am vain and would like to look different.
This is what I did:
After his comment, I smiled and without thinking of my reputation I put on a serious face and said...Actually, (nodding dispassionately) I fell sick some time ago, it was some kind of a virus that drained the color of my eyes. (and a sniff to seal the lie) To my utter amusement, he believed me! In my mind I was thinking...crap I just lied and this Aussie bloke believes me! Anyway, I said it was a joke and we laughed it off.
Scenario 2:
You are at a restaurant, after dinner you want to order dessert so that you can continue sitting there having elevated conversations with your friends. However they only have Sticky rice and Banana. You gave it some thought, but felt you could not divulge it after a heavy meal.
Will you order it?
What normal people would do:
Order a cup of tea. Or if everyone is up for it, order that sticky rice and banana to be shared by all.
This is what happened:
Emm...how much for just the banana?
Naturally, everyone laughed at that gesture.
But honestly, what is wrong with just wanting the banana?
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It is very interesting how certain people interpret this type of personality.
1) It could mean I am dwelling in never never land where children never grow up. The danger in this is that I would remain naive about whats happening in the world, which ultimately leads to being treated as a door mat. But contrary to that, having a certain amount of naivety helps me deal with negativity and have a more optimistic outlook on life. And also for argument sake, just because I don't say anything, does not mean I do not know people are taking advantage of me!
2) It could also mean a level of detachment from self consciousness - a way of letting go of the "self" that we talked about in earlier posts.
There are standards in which people have set...that expects us to act and react a certain way. Such norms or social rules can be observed as appropriate or inappropriate values, beliefs, attitudes and behaviors. The reason we are trapped in this is because most people do it, thus considered as "normal".
Let me ask you a question...Just because everyone does it, does it mean it is right?
I reckon, if we set and align our thoughts and actions to that of a higher nature, we would not go stray the path of abasement.
It is very interesting how certain people interpret this type of personality.
1) It could mean I am dwelling in never never land where children never grow up. The danger in this is that I would remain naive about whats happening in the world, which ultimately leads to being treated as a door mat. But contrary to that, having a certain amount of naivety helps me deal with negativity and have a more optimistic outlook on life. And also for argument sake, just because I don't say anything, does not mean I do not know people are taking advantage of me!
2) It could also mean a level of detachment from self consciousness - a way of letting go of the "self" that we talked about in earlier posts.
There are standards in which people have set...that expects us to act and react a certain way. Such norms or social rules can be observed as appropriate or inappropriate values, beliefs, attitudes and behaviors. The reason we are trapped in this is because most people do it, thus considered as "normal".
Let me ask you a question...Just because everyone does it, does it mean it is right?
I reckon, if we set and align our thoughts and actions to that of a higher nature, we would not go stray the path of abasement.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Justice
Someone once said that Justice is blind!
This statement was meant to explain that the world we live in is never Just! Good people are often accused, socially degraded and mentally cursed to have lesser faith in the goodness of men. Whereas bad people tend to get away with their mischievous deeds and live a life of spiritual degradation.
This statement also meant that good people would need to sacrifice their honor and dignity and apologies for something they did not do, so that the misdeeds of others would not cause more misguided defamation.
As you can see from the above pictures of The Lady Justice; in one hand (right) she holds a sword which symbolizes the power of Justice and Reason. And on the left she holds a weighing scale. Often people associate a weighing scale as fairness. However, it can also mean that she is measuring the strengths of a case's support and opposition. Hence, this brings us to the last object: the blindfold. She wears a blindfold to indicate that justice should be reasoned out objectively without favor or fear of the outcome. But think about it, how is a person able to balance the scale where in one hand holds a heavy sword and in another the pressure to keep the scale in balance? Obviously, more thought needs to be imparted into the representation of so delicate yet compelling a subject like Justice!
When I was told injustice is embedded the the very world we live in, that I was being naive to think that humanity were created noble and that the betterment of the world CAN and WILL be accomplished through pure and goodly deeds...I can honestly tell you that my heart sank! The seed of doubt has been planted...I started to doubt the very foundation of my upbringing...And I hated myself for it!
I am lucky that this vicious cycle of self vacillation ended. I needed to be mentally strong...lift my head and look towards the horizon of Faith and Certitude. That! That is how problems can be resolved! -- Put in the effort and have faith that the confirmations will follow through.
Thank the Heavens that there is another representations of The Lady Justice...When I was told injustice is embedded the the very world we live in, that I was being naive to think that humanity were created noble and that the betterment of the world CAN and WILL be accomplished through pure and goodly deeds...I can honestly tell you that my heart sank! The seed of doubt has been planted...I started to doubt the very foundation of my upbringing...And I hated myself for it!
I am lucky that this vicious cycle of self vacillation ended. I needed to be mentally strong...lift my head and look towards the horizon of Faith and Certitude. That! That is how problems can be resolved! -- Put in the effort and have faith that the confirmations will follow through.
They have messed with the wrong softy...for I will NOT condone to such injustice!
Thursday, May 28, 2009
The Lum Siblings
OMG!! Cute-nya ;)
You'd probably notice that I speak of my brothers often...and why shouldn't I? We are after all of the same blood. Anyway, I just wanted to share these pictures of us when life revolved around playing hide and seek, love and kisses from mummy and daddy, and life seems just like a fairytale which will undoubtedly be filled with pleasant surprises.
Sigh...
By the way, this are my lovely parents...
Sigh...
By the way, this are my lovely parents...
Saturday, May 9, 2009
I am a banana
23 years and 5 months ago, I was born into a Chinese Family called Lum. My lineage can be traced back to the mother land - China... My family has all the traits of a typical Chinese family... All the normality of conservatism, hierarchical family, traditions respected and followed conscientiously ... and even though My parents enrolled me into a Chinese Primary School... I still failed to equip myself with the very language my ancestors spoke! tsk tsk tsk...
I feel like someone is laughing at my attempts to re-learn mandarin.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
My heart melts...(2)
How can you can't blame a girl for having a little girl's crush on a cute Italian guy. Right RIGHT??
Anyway, today's story revolves around a series of events that occurred since my last post "My heart melts...". It all started a week before this day when I was merrily walking buy this particular cafe. Somehow or rather the cute cafe guy's eyes and mine met and he not only gave me a jaw-dropping wink and smile, he also shot me a flying kiss! To be honest, I was extremely embarrassed but managed to return a smile and a wave. I walked in to say a polite "Hello, hows business" and he asked that I should start coming back for breakfast.
Well...common! With that smile of his HOW CAN I SAY NO??? Also...part of me was thinking about the coffee too! Yummm....Anyway, so I returned a week later to have a quick bite before going of to work. To my surprise, he remembered the coffee I normally ordered!! (I am thinking too much because people in this kind of industry makes a living by knowing their customers!) When I was about to leave he looked into my eyes and said... are you wearing contacts? (I was wearing a grey contact so I may look a little different) I replied with a little laugh and teased that it was al-natural! (once that came out from my mouth, I mentally kicked myself in the butt for flirting back!! But that vision was so hilarious that it made me giggle out loud). His reply to my quirky statement snapped me out of it and left me all blushed. And throughout the wholeday, whenever I remembered that he called me mysterious and sexy..it never failed to make me blush!
He is still married no matter how many side glances I throw his way or equally as many I tried to avoid. I have friends who have been in such situations that their relationship actually broke up a family! BUT do NOT WORRY fellow readers for I shall not drop to such low standards! (I have principles k!)
Hehehehe...well to think I would learn from my friend's heartache.
Anyway, today's story revolves around a series of events that occurred since my last post "My heart melts...". It all started a week before this day when I was merrily walking buy this particular cafe. Somehow or rather the cute cafe guy's eyes and mine met and he not only gave me a jaw-dropping wink and smile, he also shot me a flying kiss! To be honest, I was extremely embarrassed but managed to return a smile and a wave. I walked in to say a polite "Hello, hows business" and he asked that I should start coming back for breakfast.
Well...common! With that smile of his HOW CAN I SAY NO??? Also...part of me was thinking about the coffee too! Yummm....Anyway, so I returned a week later to have a quick bite before going of to work. To my surprise, he remembered the coffee I normally ordered!! (I am thinking too much because people in this kind of industry makes a living by knowing their customers!) When I was about to leave he looked into my eyes and said... are you wearing contacts? (I was wearing a grey contact so I may look a little different) I replied with a little laugh and teased that it was al-natural! (once that came out from my mouth, I mentally kicked myself in the butt for flirting back!! But that vision was so hilarious that it made me giggle out loud). His reply to my quirky statement snapped me out of it and left me all blushed. And throughout the wholeday, whenever I remembered that he called me mysterious and sexy..it never failed to make me blush!
He is still married no matter how many side glances I throw his way or equally as many I tried to avoid. I have friends who have been in such situations that their relationship actually broke up a family! BUT do NOT WORRY fellow readers for I shall not drop to such low standards! (I have principles k!)
Hehehehe...well to think I would learn from my friend's heartache.
Friday, May 1, 2009
Family Portrait
Most people may already know that I was born into a family with two older brothers. It is such a blessing that this family of mine is endowed with innate ability to love, cherish and respect everyone in our household; and despite the challenges we faced as any other family would, we faced them collectively which only strengthen our bond of love and unity.
Anyway, I want to introduce my brothers to you...
Growing up with them around was particularly fun and meaningful for me. I always played the princess as they wage pillow war against each other in the house. I was always the person at fault when they break mum's furniture (though everyone know I was innocent...haha). I always have two protective shields that prevented anything or anyone from harming me. I always had their company when I was afaird to sleep alone in the dark. I always have two people to talk to when I feel deserted.
I am proud to say that I take pride in both my brothers! And I love them for who they are and for the person they make me want to be.
Does it look anything like us? hahahha...
And can you guess which is Ken Leong and which is Ken Wye?
Anyway, I want to introduce my brothers to you...
Ken Leong (ko) is the eldest who is 7 years older than I am. He is the lucky one in the family...born with glossy soft hair, bushy eyebrows, big eyes, perfect teeth, no acne genes, slim legs and the list goes on. Boy...countless times have I questioned my mum...WHY didn't I turn out as pretty as he did?? Being the first son, he is the pride of the family. When he was a teenager, I remembered admiring his neat/ thin handwritting. I love his awesome sense of taste with clothes, perfume and even jewlery! I admire his ability to turn any serious/ awkward moment into a laughable atmosphere (his laugher is contagious). His happiness was infectious, when people stood near him their worlds would seem a little brighter, if he hummed a tune, others around him would start humming like some form of musical. Despite his happy-go-lucky attitude, he is smart and always gives me sound advice and wil never fail to be there when I am in trouble or lonely. My respect and admiration for him grew when we sat down at Starbucks one afternoon and he was bombarding me with advice left right and center, then he told me: "...I respect any decision you will make (in life) and be assured that I will always be there to support you." His way of teaching me the way of life is to allow me to make as many mistakes as long as I don't regret making them. Whenever I think of him and that moment I would tell myself that I want to be just like him when I grow up! :)
Ken Wye (ko) is the middle son among the three us. Only 5 years older than I am but still he protrays a man in his 50's...matured and old fashion. But don't let that fool you because he is also virtuously cunning, exteremely friendly, open to new ideas, smart, a born leader, charming, has a captivating smile..heck he has a perfectly convincing smile, properly deployed, his smile has the ability to launch a holy war! Growing up, I had friends who fell in puppy love for him and I would outwardly show my humiliation but secretly smile with glee (becasue my brother's face would go red when they declared their undying love for him) and feel so proud of him. Growing up was never difficult for me because I knew for sure that he was always there to protect me from bullies and be my fort agaisnt people who belittle me. He is the type of brother who warns me not to thread a certain path in life in fear that I might get hurt or stressed when I made the wrong decision. He tells me how to lead a life free from fear, free from doubt, free of unhappiness even though it means giving up the things I wanted. I always look at him with admiration and respect and also tell myself I want to be just like him when I grow up! :)
Ken Wye (ko) is the middle son among the three us. Only 5 years older than I am but still he protrays a man in his 50's...matured and old fashion. But don't let that fool you because he is also virtuously cunning, exteremely friendly, open to new ideas, smart, a born leader, charming, has a captivating smile..heck he has a perfectly convincing smile, properly deployed, his smile has the ability to launch a holy war! Growing up, I had friends who fell in puppy love for him and I would outwardly show my humiliation but secretly smile with glee (becasue my brother's face would go red when they declared their undying love for him) and feel so proud of him. Growing up was never difficult for me because I knew for sure that he was always there to protect me from bullies and be my fort agaisnt people who belittle me. He is the type of brother who warns me not to thread a certain path in life in fear that I might get hurt or stressed when I made the wrong decision. He tells me how to lead a life free from fear, free from doubt, free of unhappiness even though it means giving up the things I wanted. I always look at him with admiration and respect and also tell myself I want to be just like him when I grow up! :)
Growing up with them around was particularly fun and meaningful for me. I always played the princess as they wage pillow war against each other in the house. I was always the person at fault when they break mum's furniture (though everyone know I was innocent...haha). I always have two protective shields that prevented anything or anyone from harming me. I always had their company when I was afaird to sleep alone in the dark. I always have two people to talk to when I feel deserted.
I am proud to say that I take pride in both my brothers! And I love them for who they are and for the person they make me want to be.
Does it look anything like us? hahahha...And can you guess which is Ken Leong and which is Ken Wye?
Friday, March 20, 2009
I have a problem :(
Hello, I am Lynn and I am a shopaholic! My problem lies in my inability to control my spending. Before it gets too late (i.e. before I resort to credit debts) I want to help myself by...
First: Identifying and accepting that a have this problem of spending on unnecessary things.
Second: I will have to list down steps in which I can resolve this!
Third: I MUST diligently act on them!
If you have any suggestions, please do not hesitate to leave a comment. ;)
First: Identifying and accepting that a have this problem of spending on unnecessary things.
Second: I will have to list down steps in which I can resolve this!
Third: I MUST diligently act on them!
If you have any suggestions, please do not hesitate to leave a comment. ;)
Friday, March 6, 2009
Personality Quiz
The last time I did something like this was....I was in high school. Nevertheless it never fails to entertain me. Thanks SabSab :)! If it weren't for your blog post, my afternoon would have been filled with number crunching activities!
Anyway, I did the test and this was their analysis:
- You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
PekLynn says: HAH! HAHA! Hahahah...yea right! (^sarcastic smile inserted here)
- You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
PekLynn says: I hope that's true... :"|
- You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
PekLynn agrees with the first part! But is rather skeptical about the second.
- Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
PekLynn smirks and says: Not so sure about the flocking.
- Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
PekLynn says: Errm...is that true fellow ex's?
- You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
PekLynn says: THAT IS SO TRUE! I really don't mind being alone if I can't find Mr.Awesomeness! ;)
Go Crazy...
Go Crazy...
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Lost, Scared and Enjoyed it!
Don't you just L.O.V.E train rides?
Picture this: you are sitting comfortably on a train by yourself. It is a lovely Saturday afternoon, the sun is vibrantly smiling down on us, the plants are basking in sun as it absorbs the warmth of the sun, the birds are singing their cares away, and you are sipping a cup of take away Mocha and reading a good book, and occasionally admiring the sight of meadows, trees, mountains and black & white cows eating grass. You are feeling a strong sense of appreciation for the beauty of nature as your are physically taken further away from the city.
That was what I experienced last Saturday on my way to Yerrinbool which is 2 hours away from the city (by train). I was thinking to myself...what a wonderful way to relax and rejuvenate! I smiled with glee feeling all this positive energy flowing through me, and I thought to myself...nothing can go wrong today ;)
Perhaps I was too quick to judge...or perhaps it was just my luck...or perhaps someone wanted to play a practical joke on me... whatever it is...
When Yerrinbool Station was coming up, I started preparing myself to get off and make my merry way towards the Bahai School where I will be assisting with the monthly Accounts.
Needless to say, I was not expecting the door of the train to close on me as I was one foot away from the door. I wanted to reach my hand out through the gap just to "try my luck" hoping the door will reopen. But I was too chicken to do that...what can I say, I need my hand to continue being employed right?! Anyway, that situation left me screaming...NNNNNOOOOOOoooooooo..! Hands pressed against the door, facial expression betraying my unease feeling as the train departs Yerrinbool station.
30 minutes later I ended up in Mittagong...
When I got off the station....I stood there staring at that chair for no less than 5 minutes when it finally hit me that I am burning under the blazing sun!
I walked to the information counter and they were closed. I found a police station and the office was empty. I looked around for any sign of human activity...none! I optimistically reminded myself that this situation isn't a remake of the movie "House of Wax"! No one will kill me and turn me into a wax figure... No one will kill me and turn me into a wax figure...No one will kill me and turn me into a wax figure...No one will kill me and turn me into a wax figure... (*.*)
Anyway, I soon found out that the next train back to Yerrinbool is in another 2 hours. So for now I am lost, stuck and lonely in this city...to make this short and sweet...I walked around the city, couldn't find anything to do so I walked back to the station. And waited. Nothing happened. Nothing continued to happen. More nothing. The return of nothing. Nothing to-the-power-of-two. Nothing comes again. I waited...then what seemed like several months passed I resorted to cam-whoring. These were the out come:
...and then I got bored...so I listen to my Ipod and played my all time favorite game...and took more pictures after that...
Picture this: you are sitting comfortably on a train by yourself. It is a lovely Saturday afternoon, the sun is vibrantly smiling down on us, the plants are basking in sun as it absorbs the warmth of the sun, the birds are singing their cares away, and you are sipping a cup of take away Mocha and reading a good book, and occasionally admiring the sight of meadows, trees, mountains and black & white cows eating grass. You are feeling a strong sense of appreciation for the beauty of nature as your are physically taken further away from the city.
That was what I experienced last Saturday on my way to Yerrinbool which is 2 hours away from the city (by train). I was thinking to myself...what a wonderful way to relax and rejuvenate! I smiled with glee feeling all this positive energy flowing through me, and I thought to myself...nothing can go wrong today ;)
Perhaps I was too quick to judge...or perhaps it was just my luck...or perhaps someone wanted to play a practical joke on me... whatever it is...
When Yerrinbool Station was coming up, I started preparing myself to get off and make my merry way towards the Bahai School where I will be assisting with the monthly Accounts.
Needless to say, I was not expecting the door of the train to close on me as I was one foot away from the door. I wanted to reach my hand out through the gap just to "try my luck" hoping the door will reopen. But I was too chicken to do that...what can I say, I need my hand to continue being employed right?! Anyway, that situation left me screaming...NNNNNOOOOOOoooooooo..! Hands pressed against the door, facial expression betraying my unease feeling as the train departs Yerrinbool station.
30 minutes later I ended up in Mittagong...
When I got off the station....I stood there staring at that chair for no less than 5 minutes when it finally hit me that I am burning under the blazing sun!
I walked to the information counter and they were closed. I found a police station and the office was empty. I looked around for any sign of human activity...none! I optimistically reminded myself that this situation isn't a remake of the movie "House of Wax"! No one will kill me and turn me into a wax figure... No one will kill me and turn me into a wax figure...No one will kill me and turn me into a wax figure...No one will kill me and turn me into a wax figure... (*.*)
Anyway, I soon found out that the next train back to Yerrinbool is in another 2 hours. So for now I am lost, stuck and lonely in this city...to make this short and sweet...I walked around the city, couldn't find anything to do so I walked back to the station. And waited. Nothing happened. Nothing continued to happen. More nothing. The return of nothing. Nothing to-the-power-of-two. Nothing comes again. I waited...then what seemed like several months passed I resorted to cam-whoring. These were the out come:
...and then I got bored...so I listen to my Ipod and played my all time favorite game...and took more pictures after that...
Friday, January 16, 2009
A tribute to Friendships
When I was 5, I remember trying to please my peers, claiming I had a huge collection of stickers and color pencils. The day came when I had to share my collection with them and they unfortunately they were disappointed because it was not good enough. Since then they rejected my company.
Roya & I -- Countless embarrassing stunts we did when we were growing up! Its amazing that we turned out sane... ;)
Sabina & I -- Another gila one like Roya & myself. Hmm...maybe we should be the Dynamic Trio of Subang! Our specialty will be our contagious laughter! People won't even know what hit them as they laugh along with total ignorance of the situation.
From left: Shamir, Joshua, me, Ruhullah, Chia Sin and Mitra -- Street dancing! Need I say more...?
Ren Yi -- What are you doing in my kitchen??
Oh yea...you're helping me cook for the 20 friends who invited themselves over for a 3 course meal. How nice of you...for once! ;)
Ah Mei and Su Yin aka Hamster and GuineaPig...and myself the seal! Org Org =^.^=
Carny -- only recently added into our "chi mui-ship". :)
From left: Edison, Vivianne, Salina, Junda, me, Diane, Mo and Shaun.
The Making Activities Super Awesome Gang! ;)
Jenny & I -- An unexpected friendship, I must say. It started with Jenny being my boss (Ms.Boss) and how fortunate of me to discover a friend I can be extremely random with. I do apologize for my annoying-ness but look on the bright side, it means I am comfortable with you! Hahahahha... ;D
When I was 10 years of age, I still kept my willingness to please my “friends” because of the urge to be accepted. The “leader” of the pack would ask me to do this, that and all sorts of nonsense…and being ignorant I did as I was told. I had a crush on a guy but diligently tried to suppress that feeling because she liked him too. I remembered hitting him hard on the back to prove that I treated him as one of my “chi mui”...how embarrassing!
From the age of 15 onwards, I declared not to be anyone’s’ fool!
And fortunately enough I met people who sincerely wanted to be my friend. Not because I had long hair. Not because I was chubby. Not because I had a huge collection of Pooh merchandise.
Remember the time when we ponteng school to get our ears pierced; the time when we snuck out in the middle of a sleepover to throw rotten eggs at some guy’s house; the Halloween party where we had to dress up like dead people; the time when we starved ourselves so that we could indulge in a large pizza the next day…
How about the time when we squeezed into my mom’s proton to get to Sunway and celebrate New Years Eve; the “Bye Bye Bye” dance that was the highlight among our embarrassing performances; the “meetings” that we had as an excuse to hang out together; eating ice cream at Genting and letting the cold night breeze blow against us to see who can survive the longest; our chatting sessions in the car after a devotional; the concert that we planned and performed at that school; the two weeks intensive teaching campaign at the center...
And the times when we would sit a stare at the starry sky and weep in awe of its beauty; the time when we took a train and explored Sydney suburbs, got lost, and accidentally stumbled upon a highly rated Indian restaurant; the time when we went for go-karting and I somehow managed to get into the top 10 drivers because I was a slow and safe driver; the Thursday evening Malaysian Society meetings; the chopping onion lessons ; the Lamb Vindalu and Chicken curry cooking lessons; the time when I accidentally burst out saying "I have a life..OK!" and will never hear the end of it; ...
As my future unfolds, I am more than certain that more memories will be added here.Isn’t it amazing how little people did notice when all their lives they had been encouraged to ignore anything worth noticing? ...I guess I am just saying that we tend to take friendships for granted. We may strive to gain favor from one and at the same time neglect another...
Roya & I -- Countless embarrassing stunts we did when we were growing up! Its amazing that we turned out sane... ;)
Sabina & I -- Another gila one like Roya & myself. Hmm...maybe we should be the Dynamic Trio of Subang! Our specialty will be our contagious laughter! People won't even know what hit them as they laugh along with total ignorance of the situation.
From left: Shamir, Joshua, me, Ruhullah, Chia Sin and Mitra -- Street dancing! Need I say more...?
Ren Yi -- What are you doing in my kitchen??
Oh yea...you're helping me cook for the 20 friends who invited themselves over for a 3 course meal. How nice of you...for once! ;)
Ah Mei and Su Yin aka Hamster and GuineaPig...and myself the seal! Org Org =^.^=
Carny -- only recently added into our "chi mui-ship". :)
From left: Edison, Vivianne, Salina, Junda, me, Diane, Mo and Shaun.
The Making Activities Super Awesome Gang! ;)
Jenny & I -- An unexpected friendship, I must say. It started with Jenny being my boss (Ms.Boss) and how fortunate of me to discover a friend I can be extremely random with. I do apologize for my annoying-ness but look on the bright side, it means I am comfortable with you! Hahahahha... ;DFriends are forever - - I shall publically accept this universally used statement. ;)
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Lalala...I'm so lonely...sigh
Lonely...I'm so lonely...La.La.LA...and I can't remember the lyrics...Dam.Ta.Da.Dam...
Well, its the 14th of January 2009 and most of my friends have gone back to Malaysia. They will be back home with their families and friends, celebrating Chinese New Year and eating all the glorious Malaysian food. I'm envious! :'(
Dear dear friends...PLEASE COME BACK! I promise I will be a good girl! ;)
Jenny...I promise to help you decorate your cupcakes when Angeline isn't around. I'll make sure we have updating sessions at least once a week. And will try (very hard) not to wash your dishes when you tell me not to. Heh heh heh...
Diane...I promise to cut down on my eagerness to annoy you. It will be a huge sacrifice on my part...but I will do it for you!
Junda...I promise I will not not give negative criticism whenever you give a speech nor compare yours to others. And truth be told (I have never agreed to anyone before) I did cry when you gave that Good-Bye speech during AGM 2008. And I promise that I will not say that you are chubby (after this post)!
Edison...O Edison...
You are like a little kid brother to me...annoying yet adorable! I shall promise to stop giving you the "better stop what you are doing or I will give you a nice whack on the back" look.
Vivianne...I promise to have drinks (non-alcoholic) with you more often! And whack anyone (especially Shuli) who disturbs you.
Mo!! I promise to be more polite with you...with all the gestures of Good Mornings, Good Afternoons, and Good Evenings at the right time...
Sigh...So sad!
Well, its the 14th of January 2009 and most of my friends have gone back to Malaysia. They will be back home with their families and friends, celebrating Chinese New Year and eating all the glorious Malaysian food. I'm envious! :'(
Dear dear friends...PLEASE COME BACK! I promise I will be a good girl! ;)
Jenny...I promise to help you decorate your cupcakes when Angeline isn't around. I'll make sure we have updating sessions at least once a week. And will try (very hard) not to wash your dishes when you tell me not to. Heh heh heh...
Diane...I promise to cut down on my eagerness to annoy you. It will be a huge sacrifice on my part...but I will do it for you!
Junda...I promise I will not not give negative criticism whenever you give a speech nor compare yours to others. And truth be told (I have never agreed to anyone before) I did cry when you gave that Good-Bye speech during AGM 2008. And I promise that I will not say that you are chubby (after this post)!
Edison...O Edison...
You are like a little kid brother to me...annoying yet adorable! I shall promise to stop giving you the "better stop what you are doing or I will give you a nice whack on the back" look.
Vivianne...I promise to have drinks (non-alcoholic) with you more often! And whack anyone (especially Shuli) who disturbs you.
Mo!! I promise to be more polite with you...with all the gestures of Good Mornings, Good Afternoons, and Good Evenings at the right time...
Sigh...So sad!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Who is LPL?
LpL is a normal person, living a normal life, with normal people surrounding her- family, best friends and friends she holds dear!
Having parents and brothers that love her, it is not surprising however to realize that she has been pampered to the extent that she is still that kind of child who closes her eyes and thinks that no one can see her any more.
She is a Sagittarian, and Sagis are said to be unreliable and impossible to pin down. The truth is rather more complicated; for she will stick to any task which is meaningful and stand by any friend who is loyal. She just won’t hang around if there is no reason to.
She is a neutralist. She gets uncomfortable with the thought of people fighting and looking down on each other. If you ask her to choose a side, most probably she’d refuse. If you backbite about her friends, she’d counter it with praise of them. (well, at least most of the time)
She used to be afraid to let out the sleeping bitch in her, but she realized that the goal isn’t always to be liked. It’s about being valued!
She tries hard to be an optimist. It was read somewhere that a sure sign of maturity is having a positive outlook in life. Why burden ourselves with depression and negativity when all it does is make us feel a paralyzing fear of helplessness towards the problem and not to mention demoralizing our capabilities.
She can daring and adventurous. But don’t dare her to cross a busy road blind folded; she’d do it even without you asking. However, when it comes to food, she diligently follow a strict rule of anything cooked (except slimy, smelly bitter food...) and not weird looking.
She has a fetish for spices, especially cinnamon and ginger. As a result, she tends to crave for Chai Lattes, warm Soya Bean milk with ginger, Cinnamon toast with butter, Cinnamon rolls, ‘Rasem’…she is a loyal supporter for the sales of legally addictive stimulance aka coffee!
She loves to sleep! She'd close her eyes and poof…off to dream land! In her dreams, she is not restricted by reality. She can eat all the chocolates she wants and not gain weight on the thighs. She can fulfill her dreams of being an artist. And most importantly she can be with the people she loves even though they are miles apart.
As you can read…She lives in a world of her own. It is peaceful, it is pleasant, and it is her sanctuary…
How we handle Stress
We all handle stress in varying ways...in fact we experience different phases during the process of reconciliation with one's problem.
Stage one: Denial
Bad things happen when we are not aware of it! It is true......when we are unaware of whats happening in our life, we do not take precaution and this act itself drags us into a black hole and when we are finally aware of the situation, most of the time we find it hard to crawl out of it as we are overwhelmed in this destructive vortex of conflict. On the other hand, there are people who chooses not to acknowledge the problem, hoping that it will go away - just like Piglet!
I find that with the support of good friends and a moderate amount of chocolate we are able to accept the situation we are in and embark on a strategy towards recovery.
I guess the main idea is for us to realize and accept that we are imperfect human beings and any decision we make in life is right as long as we keep moving forward.
Stage two: Anger
Why is this happening to me?? Its not fair!!
These are common things that go through my head when I am stressed. I begin to dislike being around people because any act they do will annoy me and whats worse...i start to hate myself. This is when binge eating occurs...one second I'm turning on my computer and the next moment I realize I finished a WHOLE packet of Tim Tams!
My friends tell me that Yoga and meditation works perfectly to solve this problem. And they are right! Meditating helps clam the nerves and relaxes your mind. Once you are such a peaceful state you are able to view your problem from a whole new different angle - from above and not in it! Pretending you are a third person can be weird, but believe me, once you take out the clog of self pity, interesting ideas will start gushing in!
Stage three: Bargaining
Please God, help me through this, I promise I will be a better person!
Hahha...yes I do bargain with God. It is horrible of me! I know!
I am leaning to pray to God not only when I need Him, but everyday as a sign of my love for Him. In doing so, I am sure that my actions will be carried out in remembrance of Him and not material attachment to this world. See, prayer is a powerful tool that elevates us and thus not being too hampered by the destruction's of this world.
"Pray to God that He may strengthen you with divine virtue that you may be angels in the world a beacons of light" ~ Baha'i Writings
Stage four: Depression
Sigh...Shit happens and life sucks!
I've heard that a million times and the only reaction I am able to provide is silence.
There was a time I was extremely depressed. I was angry and disgusted with myself. I did not want to be around people because I was too lazy to carry a fake smile. And the bad part is, I did not understand what I was feeling and why I felt such numbness...perhaps I refused to acknowledge the situation I was in.
During the period of a few months, this was how I lived my life...a silent cry of agony. I was very close to leaving this world.
One of prayer that drew me back was this:
"Armed with the power of Thy name nothing can hurt me and with Thy love in my heart, all the world's afflictions can in no wise alarm me." ~ Baha'i Prayer
Stage five: Acceptance
This is when we go...OKAY..this is the problem and I have a few alternatives to solve it! But do not get too excited with the options. Sometimes when we run out of information, it is time to make a decision!
Enjoy this clip...it virtually depicts the five stages that we go through...Stage one: Denial
Bad things happen when we are not aware of it! It is true......when we are unaware of whats happening in our life, we do not take precaution and this act itself drags us into a black hole and when we are finally aware of the situation, most of the time we find it hard to crawl out of it as we are overwhelmed in this destructive vortex of conflict. On the other hand, there are people who chooses not to acknowledge the problem, hoping that it will go away - just like Piglet!
I find that with the support of good friends and a moderate amount of chocolate we are able to accept the situation we are in and embark on a strategy towards recovery.
I guess the main idea is for us to realize and accept that we are imperfect human beings and any decision we make in life is right as long as we keep moving forward.
Stage two: Anger
Why is this happening to me?? Its not fair!!
These are common things that go through my head when I am stressed. I begin to dislike being around people because any act they do will annoy me and whats worse...i start to hate myself. This is when binge eating occurs...one second I'm turning on my computer and the next moment I realize I finished a WHOLE packet of Tim Tams!
My friends tell me that Yoga and meditation works perfectly to solve this problem. And they are right! Meditating helps clam the nerves and relaxes your mind. Once you are such a peaceful state you are able to view your problem from a whole new different angle - from above and not in it! Pretending you are a third person can be weird, but believe me, once you take out the clog of self pity, interesting ideas will start gushing in!
Stage three: Bargaining
Please God, help me through this, I promise I will be a better person!
Hahha...yes I do bargain with God. It is horrible of me! I know!
I am leaning to pray to God not only when I need Him, but everyday as a sign of my love for Him. In doing so, I am sure that my actions will be carried out in remembrance of Him and not material attachment to this world. See, prayer is a powerful tool that elevates us and thus not being too hampered by the destruction's of this world.
"Pray to God that He may strengthen you with divine virtue that you may be angels in the world a beacons of light" ~ Baha'i Writings
Stage four: Depression
Sigh...Shit happens and life sucks!
I've heard that a million times and the only reaction I am able to provide is silence.
There was a time I was extremely depressed. I was angry and disgusted with myself. I did not want to be around people because I was too lazy to carry a fake smile. And the bad part is, I did not understand what I was feeling and why I felt such numbness...perhaps I refused to acknowledge the situation I was in.
During the period of a few months, this was how I lived my life...a silent cry of agony. I was very close to leaving this world.
One of prayer that drew me back was this:
"Armed with the power of Thy name nothing can hurt me and with Thy love in my heart, all the world's afflictions can in no wise alarm me." ~ Baha'i Prayer
Stage five: Acceptance
This is when we go...OKAY..this is the problem and I have a few alternatives to solve it! But do not get too excited with the options. Sometimes when we run out of information, it is time to make a decision!
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